On the inside : July 2014

With the fourth of July comes much excitement: cookouts, fireworks, fellowship, swimming, family, sun, and laughter being some of the main things that come to mind. For me? It's another year older for me. Through all the unexpected events (possibility of rain, where we will watch fireworks? who is going to make it to the celebrations) comes one very known fact...July 5th I will turn another year older.
As the inevitable day approaches I know what I can look forward to: Spending time with my family, celebrating another year of life, and thanking God for my family.
After the high I experienced all week I am at a very steady speed right now. I just feel content. Content with being me. Content with turning 27. Content with my life.

Thursday I got to see one of my best friends from about 6 years ago. I haven't seen her in 4 years and I didn't even realize how much I miss her until we got to talk and hang out. I watched my little social butterfly spread her wings and make friends she doesn't even remember. She has known these girls since they were babies, but to her the friendship was all new. We started the afternoon off at the Sprayground where we could play catch up (as much as you can in such a short time) and I enjoyed watching the kids play in the water and get to know each other. It was wonderful to watch them play and giggle. It reminded me of the first time I met Ali, and how much we laughed and just hit it off.
After the spray ground we headed to Lauren's house to have a cook out and gather with a bunch of people we hadn't seen (and Jill who we see a lot now). It was nice. Eating, talking, observing, and listening. It felt good to be connected and to regroup and to see a friend and it feel like we were never a part and just pick up where we left off. I felt rejuvenated. Like all the questions in my head were answered and I felt that immediate connection again with my friend, that I haven't even seen in so long. It felt brand new, but so old. I couldn't put my finger on it. As 16 kids ran wild through the house, in and out in and out, and the food covered every square inch of the counter I couldn't help but feel full. My heart was completely full at that moment. I was surrounded by people I've known for 6-7 years and I could feel all the love in the room. We all came for a purpose to reconnect with the person we have all felt disconnected too and I really feel like we all did, in different ways. The kids had fun eating late night ice cream cones, playing in the sprinkler, and running around screaming and talking. It's nice to see when your kids get along also.
When the night came to an end we all said our not goodbyes but our see you laters and we were off. The night was still young (well before 10) and amazingly my kids didn't roll over from exhaustion so John and I decided to catch July 3rd fireworks at the high school.
As we sat all cuddled together we watched Lake Winnie's display light the night sky with beautiful fireworks. The kids were entranced and were so happy to see the beauty in those colorful lights. The comfort I felt being surrounded by those three was awesome. I just watched the sky and felt so content.

Independence Day approached quickly and the girls and I headed off to Wal-Mart to school supply shop for my first grader. As we filled the carts with her goodies I was waiting patiently to hear from Ali as we were going to have a send off brunch with her and her family. 11 turned to 12 so the girls and I got to have fun shopping and learning the art of patience. After Madilyn had one meltdown...two meltdowns...and onto the third I thought it best to head to City Cafe and wait for our friends there.
Once there we were all smushed at a table together, and the kids hit it off. Kylie Jade and Alora sang Let It Go a few times and ordered the same kids meal...just because that's what best friends do.
Getting to talk to my friend more I realized that I didn't want to lose touch again. She was a great friend when she lived in Chattanooga and it dawned on me that distance doesn't make or break a friendship. Being so far away it is easy to give up and lose touch, but I don't want to give up and lose touch with every person I know. I just had so much fun talking and laughing and then it was time again. The real not goodbyes, but the real see you laters. As I hugged my friend bye and got in my car to head off onto our next venture. Kylie busted out in tears. "I don't want them to go!" She cried. "Those were some great friends!" We had a nice heart to heart and decided having Rinoa and Alora as pen pals would be a great experience for them! Not only will they get to keep in touch, they could practice spelling and handwriting (which is always a bonus!) I asked Kylie if she would like to visit them maybe next year and she got so excited. I think we may be going to Illinois next year for our vacation (which I will be so excited to do).

4th of July was a bit lonesome without my sister or my brothers, but my mom and I decided to power through, alone and still have a fun 4th without everyone. This was the first big event that was just me and mom and my girls. They played in the pool we had BBQ and then we headed off to the fireworks again. John came along as he got off work at 7:30 the fireworks weren't as fun as watching the kids run around in the night time. Performing for anyone who would watch and cartwheeling in the grass. It was still a magical time and I definitely appreciated it for what it was.

I woke up to my little princess Kylie Jade wishing me a Happy Birthday! The girls both sang to me and drew me countless pictures and I just soaked up being their mommy. I have been dreading 27 because it is just another year closer to the big 30. Although knowing I am surrounded by friends and family and my pack just keeps growing I gotta say...27's not so bad.

School lunch box

First grade is cool

McCartney and Madilyn at the cookout

Kylie Jade at the Spray Ground

My fave

Little bit is ready for T-Ball

Singing Let It Go with Alora

Me and the hubs

Spent the fourth with this beauty

Kylie Jade's 1st gade shoes

Fourth of July snack I prepared

MJ, Kylie Jade, Rinoa and Alora at the cookout

1st grade school supplies

Alora, Kylie Jade, Madilyn Kate, Rinoa, Gabe and Grace

The girls after watching fireworks on the 4th of July

Late night ice cream cones with MJ

Kylie Jade and her friend Rinoa

Beautiful

Saying their goodbyes and see you laters

Kylie Jade, Rinoa, MJ and Madilyn enjoying some 9 o'clock ice cream cones

Fire works on the 3rd of July (Kylie is so tired!)

The girls in the pool on the fourth

Mj and Kylie Jade pals!

The lazy days of summer break starts to taper off and we are left with first grade school supplies looming over our heads. To my surprise it is already the second of July which means Kylie Jade has a little over a month before her first grade year starts.
I find myself just freezing time. Enjoying watching my girls bond as sisters grow and the freedom to sleep in, lounge around, and enjoy the fresh summer breeze.
We have full blown ventured into Summer Camp mode and have allowed Kylie Jade to pick camps based off her peaking interests.
The first two camps she chose were gymnastics camp, she has done one cheer camp and she still has 2 more weeks of cheer, back hand spring camp and one more gymnastics camp before this break closes off into back to school mode. She has learned a surprisingly lot as she now has a fantastic High V, one hand cartwheels are coming along wonderfully, and she has powered through those back flips fearlessly and with minimal discomfort. I have to say when this kid puts her mind to something she can blow me away with her effort.
As I listen to my girls giggle and play in the other room I cannot help but feel like summer break has been good for both of them. As much as I like routine and Kylie Jade thrives in school we enjoy some time to relax and learn from the world around us. They have built forts and castles out of pillows and blankets. Kylie Jade has been teaching Madilyn to do cartwheels and kick over from bridge. Madilyn has finally learned to ride a bike with minimal assistance and has discovered she CAN swing herself if she really wants too.
I have watched my girls grow and am so fascinated with each year that we are blessed with. Madilyn's independence has soared. She has figured out how to trace her name and frequently says "let me try it" or "I can do this." It has been so wonderful to see the twinkle in her eye when she just gets it.
I didn't realize how different six is from five. In one short year Kylie has learned to read, has shown so much more compassion and has been eager to teach her sister. She has become so witty and aggressive in her passions. She has turned into a young girl that laughs a lot, and just is completely full of life. I have seen her interests grow more intense and she is starting to get stronger. Her personality has turned from one of a young child to a little girl. I see her asking questions where the answers get more sticky ("why did God make bad guys?" "Why do some people not love their animals and take care of them?" "Why do people do bad things?") I see her really showing a passion for Our Creator and her prayers are becoming more about praying for people asking to help them and less about her and hoping she gets what she wants. I have been very proud of the girl she is turning into.
As summer starts to drift away and flutter off into memories and snap shots I want to remember this moment. Remember my girls as they are now, remember how close our bonds are. As much as I can't wait for the routine of the school year I think I will enjoy the rest of our break and just soak it all in. Because no matter what season we are in we are always together and ultimately that is all that matters.