I'm tethered to a broken heart.
Drowning from the pain.
I cut you out, you claw to stay.
Yet I am always alone.
Ignore the fact that you value me so little.
I've never been good enough from the start.
I'm torn, I'm worn, I'm exhausted from the pain.
Cut me out, bring me down, tell me who you want to be.
Forget I tried.
Forget I've ever cared.
These games you play have worn out its welcome.
I'm over it.
Cutting the ties.
Letting you drown while I swim for life.
I'm cutting you out, cutting the lies.
I'm going to be free.
Spread my wings and take the plunge.
Falling.
Falling.
Falling.
Untethered.
Monday, December 22, 2014
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
A post on love
I've taken love for granted. Expected it to follow me no matter what.
When I said the words I do, I meant it. I will love you til the end.
The first time Kylie's eyes met mine my cup was overflowing. I can never accurately describe the love my heart holds for my girls. It is amazing that God created me to hold so much love in my life.
If God gave me one last day with my family I'd make it a good one. I'd spend all day doing all the things we love to do.
I would lock eyes with each one of them and express, to the best of my ability, just how much they each mean to me.
I would hug them and wish I never had to let go.
It all started when I saw him. That boy made my heart skip two beats. It felt magical the first time we kissed. I felt like I was floating on a cloud.
When he asked me to marry him I felt like it was a dream. He was mine and I was his. The world seemed to make sense.
I have been fighting a battle with myself for a long time. No amount of love could stop the cancerous spread.
I fought, I yelled, I cut, I screamed. The pain was always there, eating at my heart.
A month ago I let it all go. I let it float away. A weight was lifted off my burdened heart.
I won't go back.
My heart is searching for purity.
For fulfilled promises.
For love.
I will love and be loved.
Time is too short to waste on hate.
I will love, I will love, I will love.
Time is passing and I won't give up.
To be loved is priceless.
Never take it for granted.
Love.
When I said the words I do, I meant it. I will love you til the end.
The first time Kylie's eyes met mine my cup was overflowing. I can never accurately describe the love my heart holds for my girls. It is amazing that God created me to hold so much love in my life.
If God gave me one last day with my family I'd make it a good one. I'd spend all day doing all the things we love to do.
I would lock eyes with each one of them and express, to the best of my ability, just how much they each mean to me.
I would hug them and wish I never had to let go.
It all started when I saw him. That boy made my heart skip two beats. It felt magical the first time we kissed. I felt like I was floating on a cloud.
When he asked me to marry him I felt like it was a dream. He was mine and I was his. The world seemed to make sense.
I have been fighting a battle with myself for a long time. No amount of love could stop the cancerous spread.
I fought, I yelled, I cut, I screamed. The pain was always there, eating at my heart.
A month ago I let it all go. I let it float away. A weight was lifted off my burdened heart.
I won't go back.
My heart is searching for purity.
For fulfilled promises.
For love.
I will love and be loved.
Time is too short to waste on hate.
I will love, I will love, I will love.
Time is passing and I won't give up.
To be loved is priceless.
Never take it for granted.
Love.
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